Between the Candle and the Star

Advent/Twenty

I asked a really good question before going to sleep last night. I wrote it down in my blue moleskin journal, and then I cried.

The answer found me this morning, while cuddling coffee on my couch.

I’ve been called “Alice” because I’m curious, and because I fall into holes, into other worlds. The truth is, we all do.

Be glad that search you must. ²Be glad as well to learn you search for Heaven, and must find the goal you really want.(ACIM, W-131.4:1-2)

The answer to my question came from a weaving together voices and words—another hole I had ventured down today.

I’ve often said, “sink beneath the choppy waves and there you will find peace.”

Today’s hole, today’s lesson took me further down. Today’s lesson revealed the doorway, beneath the waves, beneath the “senseless world” of my creation.

The practice:

⁵For several minutes watch your mind and see, although your eyes are closed, the senseless world you think is real.⁶Review the thoughts as well which are compatible with such a world, and which you think are true. ⁷Then let them go, and sink below them to the holy place where they can enter not. ⁸There is a door beneath them in your mind, which you could not completely lock to hide what lies beyond. (ACIM, W-131.11:5-8)

Seek for that door and find it. (ACIM, W-131.12:1)

And between the tiny candle, the flame that spoke to me on Sunday and the distant star, seen from my parents bedroom window so many Christmases ago, the question that answered…

Why wait for Heaven? ²It is here today. (ACIM, W-131.6:1-2)

⁷It is as far removed from time as is a tiny candle from a distant star, or what you chose from what you really want.(ACIM, W-131.6:7)

Do you know what you really want? I’m curious. I’m asking everyone in wonderland.